April 16, 2010

What a new feeling to feel light and without despair dragging along
I’m afraid to trust this side of life
I’m afraid to trust this side of love
These are two sides I haven’t had the pleasure of ever seeing
It seems so unreal and as a realist it’s so hard for me to believe in things that aren’t familiar to me
Everything is different: I’m so afraid to let go of my doubts because if I get too optimistic I might die if let down
I’m the queen of the glass being half empty
And I have gladly worn my copper crown for so long now
It’s broken in now so if I let it go I might be letting go of my other skin
I am trying so hard to accept good things as they come
I am trying so hard to believe that in absence you became one
And believe that you will never stop being a good thing,
A light in my life
How much happier am I to feel your fingers intertwined in mine now?
I am overwhelmed with this feeling
My heart loves this feeling.