J is for jealousy

There are so many doubts within myself
that are keeping me from you.
Doubt comes along with jelousy.
I'm sorry for the lack of pre-warning,
but would you have seen me differently
if you had know that I am deeply bothered by your lack of differentiation between words to females when you're single and when you're with me?
Granted, I'm sensitive, But I'm holding in things
to keep you from running away.
I want to keep you close to my heart,
keep you in close range.
So I won't let you know the meaning behind it
the feeling behind it
the feeling I should be feeling when you say
I'm "beautiful"
is never going to feel as good as it should
as good as it would
if I had never seen you say it to plenty of girls just like me.