So this is going to be a heart to heart..

from me to me. Lol.

This summer I'm going to be a new person. I'm going to laugh and smile like I used to, my friend reminded me that I used to be like that. You couldn't say a sentence to me without me laughing. I let a lot of shit get in the way of that, but I'm so over dramatic I can't even stand myself anymore. So fuck that, 2 years ago when I went through a phase like this I used the phrase said to me by some good friends of mine Angel and Romeo to change it and it helped me so much. Dudes told me to "Man up! Man the fuck up!", ha shit worked. I appreciate the good friends I had and have in my life who told me that. I miss you Romeo, you were always a good friend to me and let me hear shit like it was even when I didn't want to hear it. You got me through so much. I didn't forget you Dimitri! You have been there for me since 7th grade even when I treated you so bad. I miss you D-boy, make time for your go-getta! lol Okay that's my fault to, but still. You guys are like the brothers I never had, yet you're acting lost like my real one.

I let a lot of things bring me down I noticed, but seriously I have a steady job, $$$, I go to school, I'm graduating, I'm going to college in August, I basically do whatever my heart desires, I have a crazy family who loves me unconditionally, I still have hair when I honestly shouldn't, and I'm crazy, but somehow there's a bunch of people who love me out there. $h0uT 0ut$ 2 U guYsZ! lmao. Seriously though, I'm happy. It's very cliche, but what good would happiness be without the pain? This summer is about me. It's about the sun, and the clouds, and the stars, and the birds, and the beaches, and the pools, and the late nights, and the bbqs, and the parties, and the smiles, and the frowns, and the haters, and the tears, and the romance, and the laughter, and the heartbreak, and the money that will be thrown away, and the clothes that will break night with me, and the just living life and remembering every last moment of being illegal because it's over soon.

Anyway, Senior trip is in 3 days ^_^ Yey. I'm really excited to just take a vacation with my girls because it's honestly going to be a us thing and I need it! I want to get wet! lmao. I just hope my hair doesn't fall out or turn green. Life is really better blonde and green tea does wonders for the soul. By the way I'm going to start writing stories again. In fact, I think I'm going to make another blog just for stories and have this one as a journal. I'm going to dedicate a blog to telling people's stories.. I mean an exagerated version, but a version nevertheless. I forgot what it feels like to write, it's better than green tea. No wonder I love to do this, lol. I'm going to get ready for work now.

Meow.

Hey, why don't spaces and indents work for me on here lol