Expo

Expo
Note: Free write.

I watched the deep plum on her fingernails float over my skin. Her fingertips were warm and my body gravitated toward them. I saw her look up at me with hungry eyes and I pulled her face to mine. She wanted me more than ever before, but she wasn’t mine so I pulled away. She sighed and placed her hand on my chest, but really more on my breast.
It was unbearable to feel her breath on my chest as I watched her look at nothing and think about everything. Had we gotten this far only to go back to square one? Her fingers made a soft circling motion over a small beauty mark on my left breast. She knew what she was doing. She laid us down here for a reason and her reasons were not pure.
She had freckles sprinkled over her small nose and her eye lashes spread out far away from her eyes and then away from each other forming a perfect curl. I saw her lips part so I placed my hand on her face before she could talk and began to slowly pull her hair off of her face.
“I wish you knew how much I want this as bad as you do, possibly more than you. More than you can imagine.” I didn’t look at her when I spoke.
“Then why don’t you jump for once?” She said, not changing any movements.
I could still feel the soft air that left her nose on my chest. She was still making soft circular motions with her fingertips. But my heart stopped for a single moment after she said that. It stopped because I didn’t know why I wouldn’t jump. It’s not that anything could have physically stopped me at the moment. I could have taken her offer right then and indulged in every inch of her body. I could have let her soothing fingertips touch me in places I had always longed for her to touch. I could have let her full lips kiss every inch of me as her cat eyes would stare up at me with intensity. I wanted it to be that way so bad. I only knew that I couldn’t because I was his. By being there, I was already doing too much.