Free Write: Something Beautiful

It’s like when you feel a train leave the station and you’re walking in the opposite direction of it’s own, but parallel to it. You walk within those yellow lines even though, in part, it frightens you to feel the strong vibrations of everything around you including the ground beneath you. The wind blowing your hair back reminds you of the force it exerts and makes you wonder what would happen if even a small piece of metal was lifted up by this force and flung at you. Would you die? Would you experience extreme pain?
That’s the feeling of danger you get when life starts going by really quickly. You have no control of it’s speed and what could happen if even one small thing goes wrong. You expect things to run smoothly and you stand in between the yellow line separating you and life. Most people stay behind it to avoid the possibility of something terrible going wrong, but you want to know what it feels like to feel the wind in your hair. You know that to experience life, sometimes you have to take risks.
So, you stand there watching it pass by, getting closer and closer, and then something flings off and hits you in the face. It hurts, it hurts more than anything you’ve ever known, but you wipe the blood and you endure the pain. You know that all wounds heal. You keep moving closer and closer to life moving so fast by you and then you touch it, but you aren’t there yet so you fall down from the impact. It hurts even more than the last time, so you lay there for a second. You almost give up, most people would walk away from it there. You feel sorry for yourself, but only for a second. Then, you reach your hands below your chest and push yourself back up. You brush off the mess you made, and you put yourself back together again.
Now, you stand there and life seems to finally slow down so that you can see all that has happened. You collect all of the memories of the incidents that hurt you and you accept them for what they are, scars and all, because life is finally coming to a halt. All of the beauty you had been waiting for and working so hard to get would soon be visible to you. You stand there in awe, this is life, and although the time you waited seemed long and the life you waited for seemed hard to reach, you know this is the beginning of something beautiful

*Note: This is just what I do on the train… write randomly.