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Just too hard

It's hard to believe
How much I feel myself holding back
I'm scared of you despite your efforts to show a side of you
I bring, that
you yourself say you have never seen before

If all the joy in the world could be put simply in a sentence
I'd say it to you
If all the feelings I feel with you could quite simply be a song
I'd dedicate it to you
I'd sing it to you
Hoping that my not-so-melodic voice would still bring you the same happiness
And prove to you the same point
I've felt, in every form of the word,
Warmth
Your sweetness rubs off onto me
Making me want to be better
More tolerable for both your sake and mine
And I'm sure that I'll never find someone who understands me quite so well
I can be myself, without hesitation
And I'm embracing an unfamiliar feeling
I hope my heart never stops racing when you speak to me
I hope this warmth is never released from my chest
You are love at your best
The motivation I need to want to be, to want to feel positive
And I'm positive that this will never be enough
No words could show how tough it is
How rough it is
To not posess enough words to describe the greatest feeling in the world.

i have the best boyfriend in the history of boyfriends.

he searched and searched and found this video that i had been longing for for soooo soooo long, i can't even begin to tell you how muhc i wanted this video and he found. Ugh, i love you<3

This poem is pure excellence.

J is for jealousy

There are so many doubts within myself
that are keeping me from you.
Doubt comes along with jelousy.
I'm sorry for the lack of pre-warning,
but would you have seen me differently
if you had know that I am deeply bothered by your lack of differentiation between words to females when you're single and when you're with me?
Granted, I'm sensitive, But I'm holding in things
to keep you from running away.
I want to keep you close to my heart,
keep you in close range.
So I won't let you know the meaning behind it
the feeling behind it
the feeling I should be feeling when you say
I'm "beautiful"
is never going to feel as good as it should
as good as it would
if I had never seen you say it to plenty of girls just like me.

Well it's officially the last day of summer...

and it's ending right before my eyes. I'm back from Virginia a.k.a paradise and back into the sultry streets of Brooklyn. There's so much I'd like to write but I'm not really in the mood to begin on how much I learned in Virginia in so little time(I'll save it for tomorrow possibly). So I'm going to commence my senior year blogging with a conversation with me and a good friend of mine, Ishmael, about a few physical modifications I've made this summer and how they would affect this year (AND I guess you could say the rest of my life.)

"ish boo": So I see what you mean, you'll get hate and criticism from others.
no G please xD: yeah of course, i'm ready for it though
"ish boo": well it'll be a good test, cuz u know, majority of ppl our age are obsessed with what others think.
"ish boo": So to live the idea of, "I don't give a fuck" and mean it will be a great thing.
no G please xD: yes i am trying SO HARD to change that about myself
no G please xD: lol word im really tryin to change become more mature
no G please xD: because a mature individual doesnt need the approval of others or let their opinions discourage them from something they like or believe in
"ish boo": indeed.
no G please xD: yeah well Class of 09' here i come